There are going to be insecurities I have to face as Cultivating a Home grows.
like feeling exposed to the readers. Should I share that or not?
like feeling vulnerable. Will my transparency help?
like wondering what some people in my world really think when they’ve never said one thing about my blogging.
like trying to fix a technical glitch.
like letting go of the hard water stains on the toilets and what someone might think. (Okay, I’m still insecure about that one).
like being in front of a camera…like,
A Photo Shoot.
Talk about meeting an insecurity head on.
Honestly, in my early twenties I did some modeling classes and they finally were honest with me. “…you’re more like the lady behind the register at the grocery store.” Thank you. That would scar me for life.
A few hours before Lyndsay arrived, I realized it would have been smart to plan ahead. Uh oh…she’s coming to take photos, I suddenly recalled.
Lyndsay arrived with a big, bright smile and vibrant eyes that sparkled with a fun personality. Shoot! (no pun intended.) I’d have to admit to her I hadn’t picked out the “wardrobe.” She was reassuring and easy-going, pointed out her fav shirts, and acted like this is how everyone acts.
I felt like an awkward, insecure, giggling, out of character, 40 year old. (I said felt like. Okay?) She handled me well, though, and eased my fears.
To misquote her, she said something like this, “Even the most confident of people feel vulnerable in front of the camera because they’re exposed.”
Lyndsay did a feature story of Cultivating a Home on her blog, PinkCoffeePhoto. Thanks, Lyndsay. Here are a few of the photos.
Lyndsay is the great-granddaughter and granddaughter of my first pastors in Jacksonville, the late Dr. Homer G. Lindsay, Sr and Homer G. Lindsay,Jr. And, some of my readers may even remember her mom Peggy, who is apparently “all that and a bag of chips.” (my words). Lyndsay speaks so highly of her. I’d never personally met Lyndsay until this moment and she oozed with the love of the Lord.
Over and Above.
Melissa and I took Lyndsay out to dinner after the photo session. We talked for hours. What an encouraging friend… so real, so transparent, sharing life lessons and our journeys of continual heart chiseling. What a delight to see a young mom so in love with Jesus.
She offered much needed blogging and business tips. I accepted. Hey, even the look and content of my Facebook page changed because of her advice.
We talked so long that the servers came out to the patio to let us know they had already closed. I was actually hoping to talk for a few more hours. I might have to ask her to come back again and be one of my BPF’s. (Back Porch Friends)
LIOM. Do you get awkward in front of the camera when it’s just you?
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